Happy Merdeka DAY!!!
Malaysia is 50 today
wahhh...tua udah...
well..its been an awfully long time since i wrote anything here
so...i think i have a couple of things to mention...XDD
firstly..WD 2nd generation is picking up their paces..
unfortunately WD 1st Gen is slowing down XD..[ahh...its moving forward slowly]
Semester break is over...Sem 2 enrollment is tomorrow..and im gonna know my exam result on that day too...
yea...im pretty sure i won't get B's or A's...
i didn't do well on that exam...
i felt that i was in some sort of underpressured...
dunno why....
maybe every 17 year old gone through this stuff....
anyways...
i feel like i wanted to tell to anyonw who reads this that i really appreciate for their time stopping here and read
im not sure..but these pass months i've been a bit different from my usual self...
word from people that if 'one' acted like that something was bound to happen [mostly badstuff] either on the person or the other person...
uh so yea....my chest and on my waist part[kidney?] pain has increased a lot these past days...
somehow im not worried........ just nervous XDD ..if its because of the lack of sleep ..i don't think so..coz i've lack of sleep since i was 12..so its kinda late if its caused by it now ne?...
anyways...
i've been having this painful headache too [on the right side of my head (:rofl:)]
and its seriously disturbing...
sometimes..my eyes goes blurry (NO its not because of the computer or the headache)..
i don't know...too many 'prabem'[like Gabriel always said] XD
anyways..can't wait to get back to college....wait did i just said that?....oh yea i did....
two weeks of no school really boring...
all of my friends continue their studies out of the country...
only left me and my family..
not to mention
my sis only at home on Sat & Sun..
Kelly sleeps at the day and go to his theatre thingey by night
and my dad rarely..see him nowadays...
call me lonely...
but i think i am...
years ago...loneliness...doesn't really get to me...coz there's my mum to keep me company...
unfortunately after she passed away...somehow...loneliness have become a 'part' of me...
as painful as it sounds...
i talk to people too....socialize...but somehow...im not even sure if it was 'me' who's talking to them....
sounds CRAZY ne?
anyways...
years ago i was a total jerk...i act jerky towards everyone
4 years ago...i somehow become 'nicer'...
maybe i think that might be it...
i have so much fun rebelling with my friends..
that i don't really get the satisfaction of being nice...
OR maybe im wrong...
afterall...im still young and still have a long way to discover myself...
one thing for sure that i learn WELL and might NEVER do that again was...
having a relationship...with a girl...
now i understand when guys says 'girls are cute but scary' XD
but that was the ol' me..
the new me is a man-loving girl...XD
[believe me on that..]..somehow..some girls still want to have this kind of relationship with...me?...
they say that i understand them...[DUDE!..of course i understand girls...im a girl too XD]
ok..that went a lil overboard than what i imagined to type XD
anyways...
i had fun with all the stuff going around me.
some are...frustrating...depressing...sad...felt like dying....happy..content..jumpy...excited...etc
Life's is not perfect...ESPECIALLY MINE!
i think i would die of BOREDOM if lifes perfect...
XD
anyways...i make mistakes...i try to get it right...it gets worst... try to make the best of it...
and suck it in...all of these...that makes EVERYONE ...well....EVERYONE!
i wouldn't want to be anyone but myself....
because no one can do MY worse and best things like M.E!
thats the thing that i always get right...
i might not be as pretty as everyone else..
or VERY talented like everyone..
atleast i can try my best to it and be among those people :)
X
heachan
ps:after re-reading everything..i feel like such a dork..pouting everything like a spoil brat....but i still don;t want to delete it...but for my appologize on being a dork and a spoil brat..here's some music..XD..MEHHHH
Free Music
