Out day!

Im typing while listening to Every Little Thing's JUMP song while drying my nail colors off...LOL

Anyways, Today me, Dyana and Kath..went Karaoke again..
and this time I gave my best in singing LOL....
I was in the ZONE!!!




Dyana and Kath singing their hearts out..
They kept on singing Jay Chou's songs...LOL




Okamura Aya Sensei [Japanese teacher]-sitting with peace
Chen Pui Vun -behind the white board..


LOL..the white board was freely drawn by everyone..MOSTLY me though LOL....

and yes...my Japanese Writing is not good LOL

Helpless Love Lyrics (사랑은 어쩔 수 없네요) – Yoon Sang Hyun

Lyrics:
나도 모르게 내가 웃고 있네요 ( nado moreuge naega utgo inneyo )
가슴이 자꾸 그댈 데려오는데 ( gaseumi jakku geudael deryeooneunde )
웃으며 그댈 내안에 담아야 하는지 ( useumyeo geudael naeane damaya haneunji )
모른척 숨겨야 하는지.. ( moreuncheok sumgyeoya haneunji.. )
괜찮은 그대 남자 되고 싶어요 ( gwaenchanheun geudae namja doego sipeoyo )
그대 나에게 기댈 수 있도록 ( geudae naege gidael su itdorok )
편히 마주할 수 없다는걸 잘알지만 ( pyeonhi majuhal su eopdaneungeol jaraljiman )
내가슴이 하는 일인걸요.. ( naegaseumi haneun iringeollyo.. )
두근두근 내 뛰는 가슴은 ( dugeundugeun nae ttwineun gaseumeun )
감추려고 뒤돌아서봐도( Gamchuryeogo dwidoraseobwado )
사랑은 어쩔 수 없네요 ( sarangeun eojjeol su eomneyo )
마음대로 마음이 움직이지 않죠.. ( maeumdaero maeumi umjigiji anchyo.. )
아무리 참으려해도 또 그리워져요 ( amuri chameuryeohaedo tto geuriwojyeoyo )
나 그대를 사랑할래요.. ( na geudaereul saranghallaeyo.. )
순간순간 나 두려워져요 ( sungansungan na duryeowojyeoyo )
내것이 아닌것만 같아서 ( naegeosi aningeotman gataseo )
사랑은 어쩔 수 없네요 ( sarangeun eojjeol su eomneyo )
마음대로 마음이 움직이지 않죠.. ( maeumdaero maeumi umjigiji anchyo.. )
아무리 참으려해도 또 그리워져요 ( amuri chameuryeohaedo tto geuriwojyeoyo )
나 그대를 사랑할래요.. ( na geudaereul saranghallaeyo.. )
사랑해 그댈 사랑해요 ( saranghae geudael saranghaeyo )
눈물겨운 행복이 사랑인가봐요 ( nunmulgyeoun haengbogi sarangingabwayo )
아무리 멈추려해도 그게 잘안되요 ( amuri meomchuryeohaedo geuge jarandoeyo )
난 그대를 사랑합니다 ( nan geudaereul saranghamnida )
난 그대만 사랑합니다… ( nan geudaeman saranghamnida… )
Translation :
I'm smiling without me knowing
My heart keeps on wanting you
Should I smile and hold you in my heart
Or hide you inside pretending not to care
I want to be a good guy for you
So that you can lean on me
I know well that it might not be comfortable
But that is a job for my heart

Thump. Thump. My thumping heart
I turn around to hide it
Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it to
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love her

From time to time I become afraid
Because it feels like it isn't mine
Love is helpless
The heart doesn't move the way you want it to
No matter how hard I try to suppress it
I am missing again
I think I'm going to love her

I love...I love you
Maybe this tearful happiness is love
No matter how hard I try to stop
It doesn't happen
I love you
I will only love you

[Credit:Lirikapasaja]

" I am totally in love with this song....It never ceased to make me teary...
and Yoon Sang Hyun is a hot papa!"

Introduction part of me~

I don't think I have introduced myself properly...
My name is Sha Keera..
I like to think that I have a some sort of good ability in singing and dancing...
Therefore I have a youtube account called heaveninlove2 where I showcase of both abilities..
I love photography not because of the prettiness provide but the truth we see in it..

I love music because it lifts one spirit for a day..

I love dancing because I can express myself with it...

SUNDAY~

Its a slow day..
And I wished to do nothing..
But I couldn't help to study for the Marketing Test 2 which is tomorrow and also Finishing up the english's slide show for tomorrow which I haven't even started yet...


I feel like doing nothing...
Coz that's what my heart desires...
But I just couldn't help it..
To just force myself...


Rubbish isn't it?...
I wish to find a more suitable things for me to do..
something I like...

But that's just life is...
unfair....................



and we're here..
to make the best of it.....

REAL!

Its hard to express oneself when the people around you think its a joke..
and they assumed that they know you better that yourself...
Isn't that funny?..

how life mend itself with the assumption that THEY mold you into one?
Doesn't that make you laugh when all this time they only knew you with a mask on?

Doesn't that just want to make you laugh even more
when they say they know you like the back of their hands?...

When all they learn until now was SHIT...
Life is what YOU made
is what YOU mold YOURSELF into...

NOT how they MAKE you...

But you couldn't help to wonder..
If its really you or is this something you do for them...

That's what i think...
Always...
I want to grow up..
but no one seem to believe it...

im 19 but im stuck in something im not even cleared with...
Sometimes I feel lucky to have lived in this world..
but most of the time I kept on wondering..Why im here...

Or am I lucky enough to have this life or is it a punishment to god?
Either way..Why I deserve this?

People say...Just be thankful you're alive and never to question god's intention..
Im just merely asking..because im curious...

Sometimes it felt to much and I just feel like disappearing..
It hurts to smile when you're hurting inside...
It hurts to laugh when you're heart is crying..
It hurts to just pretend everything is OK..when its NOT...
and it hurts...just to think about it....


I used to pretend and try to see myself ahead of years from now...
Its been so long since.....
I never did that anymore..
Nor put any hope since then...

I just wake up everyday and hope it would end soon...
The feeling to be in pain in order to diminish the other pain is strong...
I forgot the last time I took care of this god given body...

I have my own reason to feel like this...
Im not crazy..Im not disturbed..nor im not on drugs...
Its just a feeling lingering inside of me for years now...

Hari Raya Aidil Adha

Selamat Hari Raya AidilAdha to all muslims..

So today we decided to visit my grandparents from my late mother's side...
There's my sister, Naira [her 2 months old toddler] and my grandpa who just underwent for a surgery..


This is Naira LOL


This is grandma


And this is my dad with his wife


then we went to Auntie Hafsah's house for a kenduri because her husband made it safely to mecca...
Alhamdulillah...


-sha keera

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Its weird....
One of my good friend Dyana, wasn't really talking with me..
More over....its like..she's despise me...
Today we had Front Office test 2...WHICH Im pretty sure I FAILED!...
We try to contact her 15 minutes after 8 and no one answered...

So we started our test at 8.30 and she came in at 9...
Not looking anywhere..she just sat down and does her work..As soon as the test finished she just walk down....TOTALLY IGNORING ME...

What the hell??

So I try to catch her up..and shrug that negativeness out of me..
And just approach to her and try to make conversation..
Physically..she's there....
Mentally....IGNORING ME...


I don't know what I have did or say to deserve that..
I know I always bitch about everything...
So...I just don't know la....

I tried to think about it..
truthfully...I got tired..



Que Sera Sera~~~



-sha keera

Coming Back!

its been 2 years since I last post anything..
I've been switching blogs for god knows how many time..
And I usually end up on wordpress.com

So im taking a new leaf..Out with the new and in with the old...err..
In this case heheh...

So please look forward seeing me lurking here...

-sha Keera