1 today...2 tomorrow

Today I spend my final day in the front number of 1 today..
Tomorrow I'll start my life being a 2....

Don't understand?

Today Im spending my day being 19..
Tomorrow marks my new life being 20...

Oh man....~~
Im getting older...
Somehow...The first thing came to mind...is how much I wish mummy was here to celebrate me turning 20...

I guess that would be a little...difficult eh?..
Hahah =.='''

Anyways....Im really hoping that this would actually be a year that I REALLY enjoy my own birthday...


^_^

Up to this point....

Im feeling it!..
Im feeling the tiredness...
Today at college was a total NO MOOD day for me...
Don't feel like doing anything..
Felt like I faked all the smiles today..

I just wanna go home and crawl under my blanket and shut myself from outside world...

Im tensed up!
Today was suppose to be another friends outing day....
I was in no mood for it...
So I didn't go with them...

Feels like its the least I can do..NOT to ruin their mood ...
So yeah...
Sorry girls...
Im hoping tomorrow would be a little better for me....

hopefully....la

25th Jan

Its a sad sad time right now..
I picked up a siamese kitten blue eyes with snowy white fur yesterday
Just to have it killed by some EFFED up cat a couple of hours ago..

I was sad..
But the sadness didn't feel as much hurt as I imagined..
It might've been because I didnt really spend that much time with him..
we had chosen his name ..
My sis thought about naming him Shiro [which translate to white in english]
I though on naming him "Si Putih"...[Which translates to white in english...]
And Kelly wanted to named him "Edward Cullen" [The Twilight Vampire...i think =.=]

LOL..
We even seen his future with our family....
unfortunately..we didn't foresee early death...

God rest his tiny little soul..wherever he is now...T_T


We love you...even if its just within 24 hours

I just realized something

....that im turning 20 in a week.....=.=
Time flies so fast...=.=''

i.feel.old.

Heartbreaker [Izzati]

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Izzati's version on the first half of GDRAGON Heartbreaker song....
Its a full smash course of 15 minutes of me teaching her xD...
It was TENSE!

But I managed! xD
Anyways.....
I think she did OK for someone who's body is stiff when it comes to choreographed dance...=.=

Anyways...enjoy people!!
xD

update!

Its only been a couple of weeks since college life RE-started..
and Im feeling the burn!!

Coming home everyday feeling tired...sleepy and most of all UBER headache..
God knows the feeling ..he made me this way =.=
Lately I've been thinking of HIM...
Religiously speaking..Im not that religious xD...
but he has been on my mind since 2010...

I guess im noticing HIM now....
I'll be turning 20 soon..and my god..more challenge awaits me ahead...

Im not ready!..

In another news...xD
My sis and Leo [her husband] has started this burger selling..
and I occasionally helped them at times....

I guess in another words...
I DO have a heart and sympathetic feeling towards people...xD

Anyways..Im beat..
College event is killing me..
Hotel Law....is killing me
Accounting 2....is killing me...
Hotel Operation ..is killing me
Economics...is killing me..
Even good ol' English subject is killing me...

this is gonna be a hell of a year for me...
too many things at one time..

I hope I don't breakdown and start doing stupid things...
I need to live in order to start my life....


Im not making sense right?....
Im too tired to even try making sense right now...

Im tired of acting happy and all smiley when im dead beat....
I need a rest!

TGIF

Thank God Its Friday!!...
It feels like ages for this day to come....=.=

I have 2 more days to rest and be free before kicking in learning gear and drive straight to tests =.=

Oh did I mentioned I am a Creative and Arts Assistant Director now on our upcoming Event Management which is a culinary workshop...dang~~~

I can't get any girly then this...

So I went out with Kath,Dyana,Feli and Pui Vun...
Went to City Mall..
The first shop we went in was a ladies foot wear shop...
They were TRYING to find me a high heel to wear everyday...
LOL..
they failed!
And then they even TRIED to slip me in some girly outfits
..again...LOL..
They failed the 2nd time...

They asked me to wear different color than black..
Of course...I have absolute NO confidence in strutting myself in other colors than black...
Dyana questioned about the new jeans I bought yesterday LOL...
Vintage is sexy for me...
I love it LOL...

Its funny...they tried SO hard to change me into the girl I am and ended up being emotionally rejected by me...
This year one of my resolution is to become a little girly..
Uh...I'll try la..if can...can la..if not..then...tut tut tut...LOL

So far

So...I just got the internet line today..
So Far....since 2010 arrive..

on NEW YEAR's day
I had cooked lunch set for the whole family....Tom Yam, Dessert, Soup xD...
So we went to the zoo afterwards...I started my year by falling flat on my knees..
NOT ONCE..but TWICE...So I ripped my jeans...and It was still new..=.=

2nd Day of New Year..went to enrol at college..I've cleared pass all 5 subjects..which is rare...more RARE is when I got an A LOL...
The whole grades was 1A, 2B+ and 2C+...
Mehh..I've cleared pass..thats what important LOL..
and then me and my sis went out to BAN LOONG's Jewelry shop...to exhange my late mummy's golden bangles..to a more...'intrend?' style..that we could wear...*sigh*....

I remembered coming home with a HEAVY guilt trip in my heart...seems like my dad and....dunno la...hard bah to explain....I went to my room and I cried...wasn't worth it...I know it wasn't....now 3 of her rings are passed down to me...I want to keep it that way....
Even if one day I have my own children...i'll forbid them to change the rings...
Let it be a family heirloom....

Lazy to talk la...
I wanna start my year fresh...
whatever I have now...i have la~...

seriously....not worth it........

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!
to celebrate this amazing 2010 year..
I decided to do these 3 amazing 2009 song in one video...xD
No edit or such xD

And yes my butt is that big xD...no cursin peeps....its the new yeah xD...

Anyways...
I hope everyone liked this..
and enjoyed the vid...
I followed the original dance version..of course with a touch of heachanity...to make it..well....weird and mine xD....

Love it....people...xD

Mr by Kara: I learned the dance today
Abracadabra: I remembered the steps from my previous B.E.G vid xD...with improvisation on Ga-in's sexy dance xD
GDragon: Same with abracadabra...I remembered it from my previous video..before I got cut off from the phone call LOL

and yes...I copy all this from my youtube description LOL...

2010

so 2010 is here..
and goodbye 2009..

I always thought 2009 was a pretty sucky year for me..
but when i think about it...
it has been very unexpected for me...
I grew a lot out from it..
and somehow I've change in a little way that I might be one step closer to adulthood than I could ever imagine...

but im not ready to grow up yet xD...
Im hoping 2010 will bring me great joy..

waiittttt....isn't this to early to reminisce things?..2009 was just like.....yesterday xD...

Anyways...Im looking forward for what 2010 will in stored for me...

Things I wanna change for my OWN self is:
->To be more responsible
-> Be a great person [every year the same thing..but I don't think i've changed =.=]
->improve in my studying,singing and dancing...[im still holding my dreams tightly on this hands ^_^]
->Be more confident
->Be More Friendly..
-> I guess being a little girly in case of clothing wouldn't hurt much right?...[HAVE to put this on the list...people kept on nag nag nag on me =.=]
->Love myself and everyone else more!!
->cut down fb or any internet surfing and more into healthy lifestyle
->LIVING


Hopefully..I can achieve the things I am aiming for...
I want to ACTUALLY LIVE in this place and LOVING every minute of it....